Wide Open, being the second book in the Wide Awake series, was something I couldn't wait to get my hands on! I loved Wide Awake with Mason & Emma. Their story was beautiful and heartbreaking... We meet Milo in Wide Awake. He's the troubled brother who blames his mom's health issues on Mason. He takes it out on Mason. He turns to drugs and sex. He's the problem child as far as we can tell in Wide Awake and has to be saved by Mason several times. Then he runs off.... We read how Mason's worried about him constantly but can't find him or get in touch with him. We expect the worst honestly.... Then he shows up at the wedding but doesn't speak to anyone. We realize he's still alive but we don't know in which type of shape or additional trouble he may be in... But we're so focused on Mason and Emma so we really don't think about it much.
I was so surprised by the tone of this novel. I just expected the novel to be us going through the worst with Milo. But it's totally different! He's already gone through the worst part with the help of Joey. Wide Open takes on his journey of understanding that he's not such a bad guy and he does deserve something good, like the love Mason & Emma share, in his life. I loved it. I loved knowing that he had gone through the worst days of getting clean already BUT he's constantly aware of his addition. Once addicted, always addicted. Just thinking back on Wide Awake and then thinking about Milo in Wide Open - wow. Amazing personal growth. I wanted to hug him every time he felt like he didn't deserve something good to happen in his life, that he wasn't good enough for people (Maya in particular). Milo has to learn he's not this horrible person that doesn't deserve to be loved by family or someone like Maya.
Maya is an amazing character! I loved her. She's so brave. She's gone through horrible heartbreak throughout her life and now she's trying to stay strong and take care of her brother. She's so brave because she struggles with her own addiction but still faces other people's addictions with them. She's so strong and helps to be that strong shoulder for others fighting their own addictions to lean on for help/support. She's amazing. Loved her!
The plot was great! I was never bored and never wanted to put it down. Part of it was because I loved the characters so much. Part of it because it flowed so well and was never boring. Milo & Maya were great together and I loved flipping the pages to see what would happen next. There was a certain plot point that left me struggling to breathe because I was grief stricken... You know it's coming but it takes you by surprise when it actually does happen. I won't ruin this one for ya. You have to read it! I also love how Mason & Emma end up playing such a large role in the novel! I loved seeing them again and watching their lives change, yet again, forever.
Umm...so Yea, if you haven't noticed, I loved this novel. It was even more than I had originally expected it to be - that sounds negative but that's not what I mean. I mean that I thought the novel would go in one direction but it went in a totally different one! It was a great surprise and a heartwarming tale to boot!
Milo
My
mouth tasted like vomit. That wasn't unusual. The arm creeping over my middle
wasn't unusual either nor the way I felt completely repulsed and sick. I worked
so hard, drinking, doing any drug that I could get my hands on, sleeping with
any girl that looked in my direction and didn't slap me for my foul mouth as I
told her all the things I wanted to do to her. Slurred, really.
I
knew it wouldn't be long until Mason was there to pick me up. The small
get-togethers, he wouldn't get wind of, but the big ones, he always came and
tried to save me. It had been about a month since I'd seen him. He just didn't
get it. I didn't want to be saved.
At
least, not at first.
I
hated him. I hated him with every fiber of my being for what he did to Mom. I
couldn't stand to look at him let alone live with the bastard. So I started
going out all the time just to get away from him, only seeing Mom during the
day when I skipped school and Mason was at work.
But
she never remembered me the right way, so it was pointless to keep seeing her.
I just tortured myself by staying there and I wouldn't feel guilty for leaving. Finally, I spent so much time
away that it felt like I didn't live there anyway and stopped going home.
Mason
texted me so much that I eventually just tossed my cell out of the window of my
friend's car one night. They laughed and laughed, whooping and telling me how
free I was. We smoked enough dope to chill for the next day and a half. I never
went back to school after that. I never went back home either. Why would I? No one understood me, no
one really cared about me. They all just wanted me to 'make something of
myself'.
But
how can you do that when you don't even know the parts that make you up, the
parts that make you you, the parts
that piece together and make you feel whole. I hadn't felt whole in a really
long time. I felt older than I was. I may be a seventeen year old, but inside I
felt like I was fifty.
The
girl next to me groaned and dug her nails into my side just a little.
"What time is it?" her raspy voice breathed against my shoulder.
I
leaned over the side of the bed and lifted my phone from my pants pocket. My
new cell was dead. "Don't know. Does it matter?"
"I
have to work tomorrow." She yawned and stretched.
I
started to get up, but she grabbed my arm. I winced at the burn on the inside
of my elbow. I looked down at it, seeing the bruising from the needles under
her finger tips.
"I'm
outta here." I shook her hand off.
"Wait.
Why so eager to get away?" She rolled over on her stomach, her naked
behind peeking out from the sheet, her feet swinging back and forth in the air.
"You weren't so eager to leave earlier."
I
scoffed. "Passing out and wanting to stay are not the same thing."
"Sometimes
they are. Sometimes it just doesn't matter." She watched as I zipped my
jeans, commando. "I'll cook you breakfast," she bribed.
I
paused. I couldn't even remember the last time I'd eaten. I was so thin that I
had to belt my pants to keep them up. I always crashed wherever I was or with a
friend, ate whatever came my way, but sometimes it didn't come very often. For
all intents and purposes, I was homeless, but had yet to sleep outside.
At
her mention of food, my stomach decided to throw a fit. "What do you want
for it?"
"Got
any blow?"
I
reached into my pocket and pulled out the little baggie. "Some."
"Split
it with me," she said, biting her lip and sitting to let the sheet fall
away. I stared at her chest since she was offering the view. She slithered up
to me, unzipping my pants as she pressed her lips to my ear and said,
"Come back to bed for a while, we'll hit the blow, and after, I'll make you
some eggs."
"Why
do you want me to stay?" I asked, not really caring, but wondering why she
was offering me more sex and breakfast.
"Because,"
she pushed my pants down my hips, "my parents will be gone 'til tomorrow
morning and there's nothing better than sex after a hit."
I
watched as she took the baggie from me with her fake nails. She leaned forward
and kissed my cheek before dipping her pinkie nail in and sniffing the little
she took up her nose. She put her finger back in the bag and I took it, rubbing
what was left of the powder on my gums.
Normally,
I would have bolted, but I didn't have anywhere else to go anyway. The promise
of food was almost as satisfying as the sex I was about to have.
She
set up the lines and after we did them, one after the other, she pushed me down
on the bed and straddled me. I rolled with the drugged ecstasy that crawled
slowly through my veins as she groaned and moaned on top of me.
And
that was how Mason found me.
The
door opened and my head fuzzed over as I turned to look at him. His eyes locked
on mine before he turned away, but not before I saw the disgust on his face. I
gripped the girls hips to make her stop since someone coming into the room
wasn't a clear enough cue for her. I pushed her off onto the bed and sat up,
scooting to the edge.
I
stared at his back in the doorframe. "Leave. I don't need you here."
"You
do, Milo," he said before turning. He looked and he saw all there was left
of me. I suddenly felt like I was wide open for him to see it all, for him to
see all the rot and gore inside me. He shook his head, his eyes searching my
face. "God, help me. You do need me."
I
scowled. "No, I-"
"Milo…when's
the last time you ate something?" He rubbed his hair. I noticed how good
he looked. He looked like he'd gained some weight, the good kind. His arms and
torso were bigger, new tattoos peeking out from his shirt sleeves. I realized
it had been weeks since I'd seen him.
I
stood and yanked my jeans on, spitting my words, hating how good he looked,
knowing that he was happy with that girl that I'd seen before. "None of
your fu-"
"Milo!"
he scolded, just as a hand crawled around his arm. The girl - his girl - looked
around him, the sympathy pouring off her in droves as she looked at me. He
touched her arm, his fingers caressing, smoothing. He looked back at me.
"Don't use that filthy mouth with Emma here."
She
gulped as she looked at me. Her eyes lingered on my stomach before she looked
up at my face. She smiled, just barely. "I've got some hot coffee in the
car if you like mocha," she offered.
He
looked at her again as she came to his side. They barely fit in the doorframe
together. He circled her waist with his arm, looking strung out and guilty. It
angered me that he felt like he deserved her or anything else that would make
him happy. "Trying to lure me out with hot coffee," I mused angrily.
"Wow, Mason. Getting the girl to do your dirty work for you."
"Milo,"
he snapped.
"It's
my coffee," she smoothed over, "but you're welcome to it. I haven't
drank any yet."
She
rubbed his chest and he sighed. He looked at me again, renewed determination in
his eyes. "Let us take you to get some food at least. Anything you
want."
"No."
I searched for my shirt and tugged it on roughly. I realized it was inside-out
too late, but left it. I didn't care.
"Come
on, Milo. You can still hate me, but do it while you're eating something."
I gave him a droll look. "Milo…you look like hell, bro."
"Aw,
thanks," I sneered.
"I'm serious," he said
quietly. "Please, Milo."
He
begged me. He had never begged before, just ordered me around, dragging me to
my room, and then I'd sneak out before he woke up. He'd never tried to feed me
before.
"Come
with us, Milo," his girl asked. "There's an omelet place five minutes
from here that's pretty amazing."
I
gritted my teeth. I didn't want his charity. As if she read my mind his girl
said, "I'm buying."
She
smiled and tilted her head. I sighed, sticking my dirty-socked feet inside my
boots without tying them. "Whatever. I eat, then I'm out." I looked
over at them and glared. "Don't try to stop me from leaving."
"We
won't," she insisted. She rubbed Mason's arm and looked up at him sadly.
She looked as if she were about to cry. I had no idea why. It couldn't be for
me. I didn't even know this chick.
I
lead the way from the room. The girl I'd left on the bed yelled something at
us. I could tell she was mad, not understanding what was going on, but I just
kept walking. I was pissed, really, because she had gotten my last hit and I
hadn't gotten off before Mason interrupted us.
Mason's
car wasn't parked on the street. I looked for it, but blondie passed me and
went to a big truck in the driveway. He got a new truck? How the heck did he
have money for that?
I
didn't say a word as I climbed into the backseat. She handed me the coffee and
I snatched it from her hands, tossing the lid off, and gulping it down. It
burned my tongue and lips, but my fogged brain was past the point of caring or
stopping. As I finished it, I watched as she scooted all the way over to press
against his side. They whispered things back and forth that I couldn't hear.
The drive was short. Blondie had been right about that. We piled into a booth
in the back, them on one side and me on the other, and I didn't even pick up
the menu.
It
pissed me off just smelling the food. My stomach growled so loud and hard it
hurt. I was cold and rubbed my neck. When the waitress came, I ordered a root
beer and a western omelet with cheese and hashbrowns. Mason ordered the same
and the girl got waffles.
Before
an awkward silence could settle in, she started talking. "I'm Emma, by the
way." She smiled. I stared at their intertwined hands on the tabletop.
Mason had never had a girlfriend before, really. He wasn't the touchy-feely
type either. I was oddly fascinated at the way his thumb ran over her knuckles,
over and over.
"Hi,
Emma," I spouted sarcastically and let my gaze settle on her face instead.
She
was one of those girls who was gorgeous by design and didn't even have to try.
Her eyes, her nose, her cheeks. They all seemed to fit so perfectly. Her lips -
they were Mason's favorite thing, other than her legs, which I knew were his
absolute favorite. He'd always been a legs man. And she had some nice twigs on
her, from what I'd seen. I settled my eyes lower on the barely-there sliver of
cleavage that peeked from her top.
It
was the first time I'd seen a girl blush in what felt like years. The girls I
kept company with didn't blush. They were beyond that point, beyond the level
that allowed them to feel embarrassed about sexual things. They'd done it all.
This
girl… I shook my head and smirked at Mason. "Not sampled the goods yet,
brother? She's mighty skittish."
"Shut
your face, Milo," he stood and growled.
I
was actually taken aback a little. This was as worked up as I'd ever seen him.
And over a girl of all things? Holy crap. He was in love with this chick. I
felt my hatred soften a little before snapping it back in place. I rubbed my
neck again on that itchy, cold spot.
"Whoa,
Nelly," I joked. "Calm the eff down. It was just an
observation."
I
laughed. It sounded strange even to my ears. It sounded like a sick person's
laugh. I glanced at Emma and actually felt a little bad at the embarrassed way
she tucked her hair behind her ears. I squinted. Was there a story there that I
didn't know?
"I'm
Milo," I mocked. "Nice to meet you, princess."
"We've
met before and you know it," she countered easily.
"Yeah,"
I muttered and rubbed my cold neck. "I remember. You held my hair back as
I puked." I laughed condescendingly.
"Basically."
She smiled, not falling for my ploys to piss her off. "You're welcome, by
the way."
I didn't respond to the beauty queen. I just
pointlessly stirred my root beer. She was beautiful to the point of
distraction, sweet and annoying all wrapped up in one, and I could tell that
she had my brother wrapped around her finger whether she knew it or not.
And
it pissed me off. Mason shouldn't be so freaking happy.
And
he was, I could tell. He watched her when she wasn't looking. His entire
presence shifted when she did. The waitress brought our food soon thankfully,
and just as I was taking a bite, I saw the ring on Emma's finger.
"You're
getting married?" I heard my gravelly voice say.
Emma
pulled her hands off the table into her lap, as if unsure if I was supposed to
know that. Mason lifted his arm around her shoulder and pulled her close,
kissing her temple. It shocked the hell out of me how much I wanted to be happy
for him.
"Yeah,"
he said low. "I asked Emma to marry me."
I
didn’t ask when or how. I didn’t care.
"And
she said yes," he continued harder.
"That's
great," I spouted sarcastically with a mouthful of food.
"And
mom's doing fine, too, by the way."
"I
didn't ask," I growled and took another bite. I could see I was going to
have to get out of here so the food-shoveling kicked up a notch.
"She
has a nurse that comes and helps take care of her. I work with her every day on
her exercises, but she still can't walk. She and Emma get along great, too.
Emma was one of my patients and lost her memory as well."
I
jerked my gaze up to the beauty queen. She was watching me with parted lips,
her eyes practically begging me to give in to Mason and stop the feud. I
wondered if she knew what Mason had done, how Mason had-
Mason
leaned forward and glared as he barked, "Don't look at her like that. And
yes, I told her all about me. How I'm the devil that destroyed your life and
Mamma's. How I killed my best friend." She gripped his arm, tugging on it
and pleading with him to stop. "She knows it all."
They
stared at each other and I believed him that they had talked about it. It
looked like they had talked about it plenty, in fact, but I could also tell
that she kissed his boo-boos and made him think that it was all OK.
But
it wasn't.
I
chugged my root beer and grabbed both pieces of toast, wrapped them in a napkin
and stuck them in my pocket, scooting down the bench seat. "I'm out
here."
"Will
you just eat, Milo," Mason said in exasperation. "I'm not going to
make you come home. Just eat."
"You
couldn't make me," I spat. I
stood and leaned right in his face with my palms on the table. "Always
trying to run my life. Good ol' Mason." I saw him flinch slightly at that.
He stood, too, licking his lips angrily in an attempt to calm himself. "I
hate you so much. You killed our mother."
"Our
mother is alive," he replied loudly.
People
in the restaurant were now privy to our conversation, but I went even louder.
"What she is isn't alive! When she doesn't even remember me?"
"She
remembers you," he countered.
"Not
in the right way."
"She
remembers you in the most important way. In the only way that truly
matters."
"What
could be worse than her not remembering me as I am?"
"Not
remembering you at all," Emma said, barely. She looked up, her eyes dark.
"When I woke up from my coma, I didn't remember anyone. Not my parents, or
my friends, even the guy I had been dating. I still don't." Mason sighed
as if all of this was exhausting. "It could be worse, Milo. She could not
remember you at all."
"Doesn't
matter," I steamed ahead, unwilling to let them deter me. "The fact
is that you ruined my mom. It's pointless to even go see her because she won't
remember that I've been there."
"Doesn't
matter," he spouted back at me. "Doesn't negate the fact that you
should come see her."
"Ooh," I mocked. "Using
big words on little high school drop-out Milo. Whatever."
I turned to go, scratching my cold neck
and feeling the rawness of my skin begin to set in. He grabbed my arm and
before I knew it, I was looking at Mason holding his jaw as he leaned back
against the table. Emma fussed over the blood coming from his lip with
insistent ministrations with a napkin. I hadn't even realized I hit him until
my hand started to ache. The entire diner was watching us with these looks of
disgust on their faces. Well, they were watching me.
I
shook out my fingers, wincing but not regretting it. I turned to go once more
and heard Mason from behind me. "I
love you, bro." That stopped me in my tracks. I didn't turn around.
"I love you and I know that you won't ever forgive me. It took me a long
time to forgive me, too. I would still hate me if Emma hadn't come along and
showed me that I couldn't blame myself forever. It was an accident, nothing
but. I not only lost my best friend that day because he wouldn't listen to me
and drove anyway, and my mom, the way she was, but I lost you, too. I take care
of Mom; I became a physical therapist to take care of her. But you, I don't
know what to do for you, Milo. I don't know how to help you. If you ever need
anything or want to come home, the door's always wide open. Always. I love you,
even if you can't love me back."
I hated the fact that he made me want to
turn around, to make-up and forget everything that happened.
I hated him. I hated all he'd done. I
hated how he tried to reconcile every time I saw him. And I hated that he was
getting this great, perfect little life with a wife and kids.
I didn't look back again as I weaved
through the tables on my way out. He yelled my name and something about giving
me some money. I should have taken it and would have had it been anyone else.
But I didn't want his money.
I walked for a long time to a friend's
apartment over the Irish Mug bar. Not
only would he let me crash, but more than likely he had some smoke he'd front
me. After Mason's little haphazard intervention, I needed it. I crossed the
street to the bar and heard the honking before seeing the bright lights. I
raised my hand and saw the car screeching to a stop right in front of me. He
cursed and honked. I flipped him off and kept walking across the road. I heard
him peel away as I climbed the stairs on the side of the building for his
apartment. The bar was hopping, the music was so loud I couldn't even hear my
footsteps up the stairs.
I knocked, but knew he couldn't hear me,
so I tried the handle. When it turned, I pushed it open. He had called me a few
times, but I never checked my messages. My phone was just a drug ferry
basically. I never used it except for making a drug buy or find a friend's how
to stay at because minutes cost too much for someone who never had money. I had
odd jobs sometimes, but after you don't show up on time for a few days in a
row, they can you. That was the only
way I could buy minutes and buy weed on a regular basis. But usually, I floated
until my next paycheck, whenever that may be, and some friends would front me
some things if I didn't have the money.
But I was a little behind right now and
owed a few people. OK, a lot of people, and a lot of money. Even my friend I was
going to see had threatened to cut me off if I didn't pay him something. I
usually just avoided the ones I owed money to.
I'd gotten into the other side of the
business a couple times, but didn't sell much of it when I smoked it or snorted
it instead. I had my foot broken once for not paying up when they realized the
drugs were all gone and it was me who had used them.
I still walked with a little limp
because I couldn't go to the hospital without them calling Mason or my mom. So
my friend put a makeshift cast on me and I practically dragged the thing for a
few weeks.
Nikko's place was dark and I couldn't
hear anything but the noise below us. I turned the corner to find him on the
couch, some girl on his lap. I turned around to keep her naked behind out of my
sight. I heard him curse.
"Milo! What the hell, man?"
"Sorry, uh…" I peeked back,
but it was still too soon and turned back around. "I wanted to see if I
could crash here."
"Damn it, Milo…" He kissed
her, I heard the smacking, and told her he'd see her later, that he needed to
take care of something. She walked by me and gave me a sullen look for ruining
her night. I turned to find him pulling a black wife-beater on. "Dude, you
can't just come in like that."
"I knocked. The music's too loud."
I stuffed my hands into my pockets. "Let me crash, OK?"
"Milo." He shook his head.
"You look like a heap of hell, man."
"That's because I haven't had
anything all day and my nosey brother wanted to flaunt his hot girlfriend in my
face."
He sighed. "There's nothing wrong
with getting lit on the weekends and making a living off of selling, but
you...you're not just having fun anymore. You're hooked. You're hooked, messing
with deals you shouldn't, and people are looking for you." He took a step
forward, but looked at me sadly. "I tried to help you. I knew you had it
rough at home, but…you can't stay here, man. Go."
Oh. It wasn't sadness he had for me, it
was pity.
"Just for the night," I
begged.
"I can't." He gulped and
leaned against the kitchen bar. "Mikey's looking for you. And…so is Roz.
Go. Now."
The curses piled in my head. I knew I
owed him money, but for him to start actively looking for me wasn't good for my
health.
But I needed a place to stay and I
needed…something, anything to make me stop shaking and scratching. It felt like
ants were in my veins and he needed to give me something. "Fine," I
bit out. "Just…float me a J."
"You already owe me for ten joints,
not to mention all the blow and nuggets I fronted you."
He looked around, nervous as all get
out. My brain was in a fog. I didn't care if I slept on a bench outside. My
friends usually came through for me, but lately they seemed less eager to let
me stay. So fine, he could throw me out as long as he gave me something to tie
me over.
"I'm good for it. My brother said
he'd give me some money until I get back on my feet. I've got a job lined up
starting next week," I lied. "It's just…been bad lately. I'm under so
much stress."
"Classic druggie line," he
scoffed. "Get out, Milo. The longer you stay here, the worst you're making
it for me." We heard a car door outside and he sucked in a breath.
"Go, man, now!"
I went to the window and peeked past the
dingy blue curtain that the previous tenant had left and saw one of the guys
who always set up my buys from Roz. I shook my head, backing away, and looked
at him to help me. "Go out the back. And don't say I never did anything
for you," he growled and went to the front door. "Go!"
I ran, but as soon as I opened the back
door, there was another guy there. "You got Roz's money?" he asked.
I stalled and started the typical plea.
"Well, I'll have it-"
He didn't wait for anything else. His
fist connected to my jaw and I heard the crunch, knowing it was hurt tomorrow,
as I went down. He followed me and gripped my collar in his fist before
slamming my cheek with his free fist. He beat on me for so long and hard all
over that I blacked out. I came out of it a couple times, but it was so blurry
and the haze of pain was thick. I could never grasp onto reality.
No time passed at all for me. I closed
my eyes and the next time I opened them, I was in a hospital bed. No one was
there with me. It was a regular room, not the ER. I lifted my head to survey
the damage and immediately regretted that hasty decision. My head hurt so
badly, I thought I might black out again. I pushed with my elbows and made
myself sit up. I touched my head to find a bandage, my eye was swollen, my lips
all busted up, and my jaw was so sore, it hurt to even touch it, let alone try
to open my mouth.
I remembered being brought there, the
cops, they asked questions…
I had to get out of there.
Right then, that was the only thing that
truly mattered. I had rolled over on Roz. I owed so much money to so many
people, but none of that mattered compared to the fact that I told the cops
Roz's operating spots and their names and everything. He was going to kill me.
I had no idea how long I'd been in the
hospital and the lack of drugs made me way more lucid than the drug-induced
stages I usually resided in. There wasn't any morphine in that drip because I
hurt all over so badly, I thought I might vomit. The fact that they hadn't
given me any morphine made me realize that they knew I was a…drug addict.
There, OK, yes, if I didn't get drugs every day, I felt like I'd crawl out of
my own skin. So, yes, I was addicted. And they knew it because they hadn't
given me anything to help with the pain.
And I knew I was in deep.
It hit me all at once as I yanked the
needle out of my arm how bad things had gotten. I'd ran myself into the ground.
It had been way too long since I hadn't had anything in my system and my hands
shook as I eased off the bed onto the floor. I tried to yank the hospital band
off, but I was too weak. The name on the band read John Doe. So they didn't know who I was. I pulled on my jeans from
the back under the bed. My body ached so bad all over, but I knew I had to get
out of there.
Once all my clothes were on, I peeked
out the blinds to see an officer standing by my room. I cursed under my breath.
That was probably the only reason the Roz hadn't come after me. But the cops
wanted me for something, and I could guess it was for me to roll over on Roz.
They didn't just guard anybody; only the people who they wanted something from.
I pushed the food cart to slam into the
bed and then jumped behind the door. When he opened it, like I knew he would, I
waited until he came into the room. He cursed and moved forward, bending to
look under the bed. I scooted behind him around the door and acted as normal as
I could as I walked down the hall. I heard him on his radio as he said that the
suspect was missing. Then he argued with them that he'd been by the door the
whole time. I turned into the first stairwell I saw and took them as quickly as
I could. I heard them coming from the lower floor and stopped. I could hear the
crackle of a radio, so I jumped through the door with a peeling number four on
it.
It led to an alcove in the hall and I
waited for them to go up as they passed. When it was quiet, I opened the door
slowly and crept my way down the stairs, out of the hospital, and into the
street.
I didn't know where I was going, but I
knew I had to get away. It was then that I knew I'd never see Mason or my
mother again.
I went to the highway, even though it
was almost dark, stuck my thumb out and waited for someone to stop and take me
away - give me a ride to anywhere but there.
Two Years Later
Milo
I
sat and looked at the envelope. It had the results of my GED exam. Finally, I
was going to have a piece of paper that told me I had finished high school
instead of just dropping out and being a runaway.
I
flipped it over and over in my fingers. It wasn't like this was an application
into Harvard or anything. It was a GED, but it was my GED. It was all I had.
"If
you don't open that already, I'm going to stab you with my fork."
I
glared up at Joey playfully. "Shut it."
Joey
had been my friend for a long time now. It felt like forever, but had actually
only been a little shy of two years. Joey worked at the shelter that I crawled
into a few nights after I left the hospital. I hitchhiked for two days,
sometimes with a ride, sometimes walking or sitting on the side of the road. I
was starving, so weak I could barely walk, dehydrated except for a bottle of
water a trucker gave me. They pulled me into the shelter at the church in some
town.
Joey
was the one who made sure I got a bed in the shelter that night and for the
next two months while I tried to straighten myself out. There were many bumps
in the road. I still wasn't sure exactly how many days the hospital had kept
me, because I hadn't know even what day it was when I went in, but the detox
had begun then. I struggled with it, but had already gotten through some of the
hard part. They made it clear that drugs would not be allowed in the shelter
and anyone on drugs after the rules had been explained would be removed.
To
be completely honest, I fell hard off that wagon once or twice. I couldn't
believe how hard it was. That first pill or sip or hit after days and days of
not having anything was like pure ecstasy, my body betraying me and making me
believe it was what I needed and wanted.
But Joey came and got me from wherever I
was, yelled and told me how I needed to get straight, snuck me back into the
shelter and made me promise never to do it again. Finally, that promise stuck.
It's been over a year since that wagon had caused any problems for me.
About Laura Kaye:
Laura is the New York Times and USA Today bestselling author of over twenty books in contemporary and paranormal romance and romantic suspense. Growing up, Laura’s large extended family believed in the supernatural, and family lore involving angels, ghosts, and evil-eye curses cemented in Laura a life-long fascination with storytelling and all things paranormal. She lives in Maryland with her husband, two daughters, and cute-but-bad dog, and appreciates her view of the Chesapeake Bay every day.
